Editing

im trying to edit a piece my friend did,, he wrote a play and me and this other guy filmed it, so im trying to put together somekind of dvd thing for him... it was suppose to be a nice small project , but it has now turned into some kind of monster i didnt really want...
i trying to edit,, but knowing this might not see the light of day, is a little disheartening..
I mean the actors will see it,, etc,, but that's about it, it wont be for mass people... so i trying to look at it as pratice for the future for when i do other projects and stuff, and when i try to edit my own stuff....

we all are artist right out of college unsure excatly what to do with ourselves.
i think they shouldve at least given us a handbook,,, "what to expect your first year out of college" Chapter 1 . MAJOR DEPRESSION AND SELF DOUBT...

I think the best thing we can do is create projects for ourselves, till we start breaking in....

Me,, iv been delaying the start of my career,, i dont know really why i am...i had alot of motivation before my mother got sick,, but when she did, it started to put things into perspetive....and now my father is at the tail end of his career in real estate, so life is gonna change , and life has changed,, now my mother is totally dependent on me,, and im scared if i change something in my life, that it will affect her negativly,, she depends on the money i give her, the rent i pay for her....
they didnt tell me this when i got the rolled up piece of paper on gradution day,,maybe its in the fine print,,