back at work
today is my first day back at work...
you walk and everyone tells you there sorry, this and that...it was nice to see they were kind about it...
at my desk, before my dog passed away, i put a picture up of my dog at my desk..so when i walked in,, her picture was there waiting for me.. it was nice to see...
today going home today will be hard,, i usually walk in, and start to call her name and she would come walking to me,, then follow me to my home office and so i can greet her, then she nudges me to the door to take her out.... i wont get that today....
i still say goodnight to her before i go to bed,, it helps me, and i say good morning,, and before i left to work today,, i said to her what i always say..."ok denise,, i see you after work ok,, take care of the house,, love you".. i said that today..it felt good..
god i sound like im whinning, but what else can i do at this stage,,....
its somewhat nice being at the office today,, i can get out of my apartment, and somewhat pretend that shes home waiting for me... dont know if thats right or not but..i know shes not home,, but i would like to think she is......
posted by Ego Manic @ 11:44 AM
2 Comments:
I'm glad to see you're getting back at it.
Death can teach you and help you appreciate life more and more if you will just let it.
Today's just one more step toward healing yourself. Bit by bit, step by step...you'll be okay - I promise.
:-)
its funny you talk about appreciate things more,,i was thinking about that alot at work today.... how your here one day and not the next..im looking at my own life and things i want to do,,but havnt... i look at my family and things i havnt told them yet...
life so fragile
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