Seven: Gluttony

A take on the 7 movie… We learn the full story of each sin… The first one is Gluttony, you see him being feed to his death and it ends right where the movie takes over…If you are a fan of the movie you`ll be a fan of this comic…

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her birthday

today was my dogs birthday...

today,, i hurt... alot

usually on this day, i`ll make a trip to the petco to buy her a nice bag of treats or buy her a new toy,..something..

not this year

she would have turned 14 today

her urn sits in my hallway, on a small lil table,, i pass it everytime i go to work and when i come home,, and everyday i still feel that she will just jump out of the corner with her tail wagging to come greet me...

i miss her so much,, everyday i think about her, the apt is so empty without my dog around..

little by little ,,im coming to the fact ,on my own,, that what i did back in april 11 was the right thing.. that i gave her peace that she couldnt give herself...

i wish i can stop death...this world is too beautiful to ever leave it..
yeah the war is going on,, kids are killing parents,, but its the small things in ones life that bring joy....

one of those things was my dog

the day / a friend

today is going by fast,, which is good..

i got to keep looking for a new job, but its hard as hell out there looking for work..

but i spoke to a friend today on the phone,, hes going thru some shit in his personal life.....the man has his hands full..

i was like talking to this guy, since hes the few artist friends i have... sometimes when u talk to people who are not the artistic field, or is going after for an artistic career, its hard for the them to relate to u..
they think u can just be creative on the spot,, and believe me i can, i` drop it like its hot ,,lol... but internally , we all search for something meaningful in our art,, and sometimes finding that ,, or getting to a point that you can create from within,, its sometimes the most diffcult.. but talking to this guy, he gets that... theres a common link there....

why am i writing this?,, well i have nothing to do at work at the time..

i dont want to get into this person personal stuff, but i feel for him, cause alot of things in his life sometimes prevent him from doing what he does best,,, his art...

but i hope things work out for him,,

other then that im sitting her at work, thinking about my own career and jump starting it again...im finishing up some projects and just really foucsing on my art...so basically im saying,, i feel for the guy,, and im glad i have someone in my life pursing art with me..

ahh life,, aint it grand..

been thinking

recent events got me thinking in my life....

talks with friends, talks with my bosses,, etc, etc....

while cleaning my apartment today,, a weekly ritual that i do...i sometimes enjoy it, like if i was cleaning my soul out, and starting over ,lol,, ok lets get to the point...

so i was thinking,, im doing everything in my life, except being a photographer, which is what i want to do with my life..

i write, i play music, i do design jobs, a whole bunch of things,, everything under the sun,, but photography..

so while i was cleaning, i start to run things thru my head,, and i came up with ,, im going to drop everything and just live and breath photography...something i haven't done since college...

nothing else that im doing in my life is helping my photography directly.. and i know everyone enjoys my other projects but, at the end i have to live with the choices i make...

for example one thing i was trying to do was start a band to fulfill my music needs,, but i thought i was going at it with people, but i ended up running everything myself , and i cant depend on people sometimes ,, so i have to put that at the back burner for awhile..

so now just got to live , breathe , photography to get things going,
now that i know that so many people in my life ,depend, and are looking at what do i do..

i mean i`ll still will do other things that peak my interest,, like music and witting, but i will do it at a level that im only involved ,, and not to depend on people for it , and do it at a smaller level at this point..

time is moving fast,, i have alot of catching up to do

(what u think h-boogie??? ,,lol)

my boy

talking to my boy online,, h-boogie..

i feel for him...

i guessing hes going thru some shit,, hard to get into his mind sometimes, i think he has like a shield there ,lol..

but i know hes just graduated from college, and its scary,,im thinking thats what its effecting him..

knowing that theres no more school,,that all there is left is your life, and its front of you, you cant hide from it... but i know u want to..

cause when i graduated college,, i tell u i freaked out for a long time, i went into a cave and didnt talk to noooooooo one for a good couple of months, just because i couldnt handle the pressure of real life, i couldnt handle that now i have to face life, that everyday i had to make something for myself,, cause in school u get use to people telling u what to do.,, not anymore,, now its up to u,,

thats why i create projects for myself,, to keep myself busy or else i go mad...

so hang in there H,, i feel u,, i understand,, and if u need someone to talk to ,, im here,, might have to duct tape my mouth shut,,lol be im here, and always will be,,, hey we gotten this far.:-)

my worth

today was a hint of what my worth is at this office...

today a telephone man came in to see about installing new phone system in my office,, so they asked the girls to come in and see the new phones and if they have questions,, so i came in with them ,,naturally, since i answer the god damn phones in this place,, they dont... so basically any questions i had, my boss told the guy , listen dont answer his questions,, and just asked the girls,,, so i guess my opinion dont matter....
now i know this already,, but it just hurts to really see it happen in front of your face. im like what the fuck man.. so i just left and sat down,,, and im thinking,. IM THE ONE WHO ANSWER THE PHONES THE MOST, THEY DONT,, 9 OUT OF 10 I PICK IT UP,, IM THE ONE WHO DIRECTS THE CALLS,, SO WHY NOT ASK ME, OR AT LEAST SHOW THEM TO ME..

it might be small ,,but its another notch to me that why i have to leave this poor excuse for a job,,, even though its a cushy job, since i am now sitting in my boss;s desk on the computer....