article on blogging

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i found this article in the recent fortune small business magazine on blogging...

its scary how true some of the things ring

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u2 @ san diego

U2 KICKS OFF THERE TOUR

AHHHHHHH.. its finally here the start of the Vertigo Tour 2005,,, ive been watching the updates on night from the tour opener...

its amazing with techonogly ( bad spelling ) today , how much info can past,, and how much of a leap in info it is since there last tour in 2001,,, all the u2 blogs out there are jumping with up to the min info on the concert as it goes on.. wild stuff

good night to be a U2 fan..

Lead singer Bono and drummer Larry Mullen (L) of the Irish rock group U2 kick off the band's world tour 'Vertigo' with their opening show in San Diego, California March 28, 2005. The Irish rock band has sold over 2.2 million tickets and grossed some $185 million with advance ticket sales. By the time U2's Vertigo concludes, it will be one of the top-grossing rock tours of all time, with a total nearing $300 million . REUTERS/Mike Blake

my photography

i got a new magazine in the mail,, one i bought off of ebay... on my fav. photographer anton corbijn....

i was reading it,, looking at the photos, and made me thing where was in photography,, way i havnt moved on since last november. i feel like my legs are moving but im not going anywhere..

i think the reason being i have way too many things on my plate right now.. im taking on too many projects, and im not managing my time like i use too.. the days the hours, go by so fast and i feel like im getting nothing done...

i have to drop some things, and really take hold of this,,,,

man im starting to sound like a broken record, thats sad

im not getting younger,,,im gonna be 26 soon, and what do i have to show for it...

sundays :-(

doing my usual sundays,,

cleaning....

no matter how much i clean,, i feel like its never enough...

hmm ,, maybe that applies else where

my brother

my brother called me today to watch this tv show on spike tv called MXC,,they show asian tv games shows,, but commented by american people,, its funny, they have the wildest games...

but one of the thing i liked was that my brother called me,, just about the show...

that would be a thing, like one of my friends would do..

since he moved out to NJ, i dont really have much contact with him as i use to when lived here, so its a different person now, and so am i,...and now that he has the baby.. our relantionship is now more different, its hard just to be with him alone,, just me and him hanging out like we use to.. now he has to deal with his wife and his new baby...

but it was nice that he called,, it made my night, i think i can go to sleep tonight happy.....

tag board

just added a tag board to my site,,, so feel free to comment on it,, i`ll see how it goes...

readings

i just read something...

and boy i thought i was depressed,, and i thought i couldnt go deeper into it, i think i just did, and now i dont feel like not doing anything now... its 8 13pm and all i want to do is just go to bed and sleep..

i question my life,, i question my thoughts,, i question friends, i question my place in life,, what i thought had meaning,, what i thought was improtant, i realized means nothing.......

am alone....and i have to face that,, i have to face that im going into this world alone.....

things are changing,, my worst fears are coming true,, and i cant stop it.....

I'm not afraid to die ,I'm not afraid to live ,

Who's to say where the wind will take you, Who's to say what it is will break you
I don't know, Which way the wind will blow

ebay

man,, i think im addicted to ebay,,

i mean , i sell stuff on ebay,, but i also bid alot,, i like the thrill of the bid,, its like gambling,,, i bid on things i dont even need... then i hope someone out bids me,, then i get mad that they did,,so i bid again.........

help

blogging,, yet again

lol,,

its funny,, now i think my friend is really getting into blogging,, im glad, cause todays blog was classic... i read it all, it kept me into it.. great story,, hes good writer...

i only wish i can some how transfer this blog with the Live Journal blogs,, but i like blogger to much,, has so many more features... i can edit the HTML more easier...


blog

Today ah

Man what a beautiful day today. Hate the fact that im here today im here on the office .

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feeling bad for a friend

i feel bad for a friend of mine,,,

he's going thru some tough woman problem, and i think its hard on him,, more then he cares to admit sometimes...

i dont know really what to say to make things seem better... i guess just try to understand,, listen, and just be there..

i want to tell him, just forget her and move on, that there are bigger things in life then this woman, .. you hav school to deal with, you have your family... your own career, dont let this woman from your past start to slowly destroy your life...

cause i think you were going down a good path,, you were finishing grad school,, something i wish i could do,, starting your career,, everything seems layed out for you, you just have to follow the steps..

so dont trip on the wires,,,

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Ah mondays . You gotta love them

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the blogs

reading my friends blog,,
its getting good.. im glad he's writting in it more,, and i think hes finding his flow...

i look forward to reading it now,, i get to find out more of him,, cause sometimes i dont think i see the real guy sometimes,, weird,, i spend lot half my days with this guy and theres still things i dont know,, i guess hes afraid to show it,, now with the blogs i can see how he is,,, so if he reads this


GOOD JOB H-BOOGIE

check out his link on my link section of this blog

time for office lunch

U2 in the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame

i cant believe U2 were inducted... even though the event happened earlier this week,,it aired tonight on VH1 tonight...

at some points chills ran thru my body,, just watching my boys on stage,,being honored,took me back thru my life...i think U2 has been with me more then half my life already,,, of course they been around longer then that...but i didnt discover them for myself till around 92, with the album Achtung Baby,, with the whole Alt.Music scene was happening,, the anti youth,, settle,, nirvana was happening... it was a time,, an age to find music that would fit your life,, U2 were it for me....

i must say they been there thru the thick and the thin for me,, thru the music,, bono always had the words, edge had the note,, adam had the bass, and larry had the kick, that would be the theme to my life....i must say i owe alot to the this band,, where i am now,, my career choice,, is because U2,,

i have some friends who think i listen to U2 way too much,, i do listen to other stuff,, most of the time i do listen to our stuff,, or else you might go crazy...but U2 is so much more to me then a band,, so much more... U2 to me is almost like another friend to me,,, all i have to do is put that cd in ,,or play that Mp3 and that friend shows up,,, to tell me its all right...

im glad im going to see them 3 times this year,, and maybe 4,,, but i was glad i was under the brooklyn bridge seeing them 20 feet in front of me...

u know sometimes

i was just reading some of my friends blog,, it got me pissed off, and sad at the same time..
it makes me question wheter or not im a good friend or not,, the way it looks,, i think im not, i thought i was, i thought i was doing a good job...
maybe its cause i talk too much, but i feel like if i dont, it wouold be dead air...
so what the hell?

who knows anymore......
i bet now that if he looks at this blog he's gonna say,, see thats why i dont open up,, thats why i dont write personal stuff my blog....

i dont want that person to feel like that,, im just writting my reaction in my blog,,,

A NIGHT OUT

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

went out last night,,, with my cousin,, my bro......

and went where the ladies always treat us right... FLASH DANCERS!!!!!!!!!

the place wasnt as packed as i thought it would be for a friday night, but never the less, its a strip club.
We were standing for the beginning part, till we could find a seat.
Then we do find a seat, the girls come up to you and ask for a dance....like 100 times,, and a hundred times i say NO.... Hey listen i work hard for my money, i dont want to just spend it on just any girl.
But man there was one girl, who kept bugging us,, and we kept saying no,,, she was cute, but im looking for a girl who gives a good lap dance, i want someone who is into it,, or at least pretends to be...
She kept asking and asking, we were like no,, and she told me, oh i guess you dont like women,, then she called my cousin a bitch,,, i was like whattttt ,, who the hell is she...... i wanted to tell her no im looking for a good looking girl to dance with...but of course i didnt have the balls too.....

so i had about 40 bucks in my pants,, was planning just to get one dance and be out,,, and then this puerto rican chick caught my eye..whoa she was hot,,,i mean, stacked, pretty face and all...
so were trying to get her attention,, and of course ,,,every other freaking girl in the place comes up to us except her....

so i couldnt take it anymore, so the next girl who came up to me to ask for a dance, i said sure lets dance,, and it was alright,, not bad,,..i mean she was ok,,,she seemed into it,, but the moment i said i dont want another dance,, she was ok,, and got off me and went to work mode,, i was like thanks, i can see that meant alot to you....

so the night dragged on, and still the beautiful puerto rican kept missing us...
and there was another chick who we also wanted to get a lap dance from,, but she kept talking to this guy behind us,, im like who the hell is this guy!!!! let her do her damn job...

so finally she passed us by again, the puerto rican chick,, then my cousin, finally reached out to her and asked for a dance,., i was like bastard,, but then again i know if he liked it, i would too,, we have very similar taste so..

he came back with thumbs up,, so i said ok mine turn and she came out of the back room and nobody was asking her to dance so, my cousin called her over and and said i wanted a dance,,, why was i a pussy last night??? i couldnt ask her myself,, god damn... but anway,,she held my hand to lead me to the back...,,i love when they do that...

so she led me to the back,, asked me my name,, and she told me hers,, i dont remember it,, lacey,,lity,, something like that... so she started giving me a dance,, and god damn what a dance it was....her god damn tit was in my mouth,, in my mouth!!!!! she was dancing to the song, by nine inch nails,,the name of the song escapes me right now,, but when the line comes i want to fuck you like an animal she said it in my ear ,, i was like whatttttttttttttt...... god damn it,, she had a nice ass, and she kept pushing it against my chest and the weight and the skin , oh man,,,,i must say it was a good dance. then she asked if i wanted another,, OF COURSE I DO,, but my funds were gone by then,, i could've went to the ATM but, i promised myself i would only spend a certain amount... but she was good,, next time i go there i`ll bring some extra $$ for her,, i think she was worth it,, face,, ass, everything,, god damn it man...

so afterwards me and my cousin drove home,, it was good night,, and i hope i could more nights like that..... i need to go out more,, should go out like every week,,,
just tough sometimes with working in the bronx,, then coming home and having so much to deal with at home,, but this spring and summer has to be my summer, our summer...

it has to be!!!!!!!!!!

PDN

ahh the new PDN has arrived in the mail.. Photo District News Magazine
,, one the best in whats going in photography today..
they have the PDN's 30,,, 30 under 30,, og emerging photographers out there...its alittle dishearting, that my name is not on it...
But of course, i think i have done nothing to be listed, i havent even dipped my toe in.
So how can i be mad,,how i can be depressed about it....maybe its my self doubt, maybe im mad because i havnt put myself out there..

where do i begin?

i miss having a mentor, like i had in college...i would have someone who understood what a photographer goes thru, and would lead me into the best situation..
im alone here,, im making choices, and to be honest i dont know if im making the right choice,, what the hell do i know..

im just going with my gut...

now the winter is over,, time to start working seriously, start going to more galleries,, start leaving the house, and start making my mark....

just start period

ALBA...MY FUTURE WIFE

i have to say,, Jessica Alba,, star of Dark Angel and now Sin City... is the most beautiful woman in the world I WOULD MARRY HER IN A SECOND!!!!!!!!! GOD PLEASE HELP ME OUT HERE

Joining a Band

Music is always one of my passions i have.... i mainly focus on photography, but always have that itch to play live in front of people,, me and my guitar... the giant E chord just ripping thru the crowd, people chanthing encore, encore...

So i always thought since i luv U2 ,, why not start a U2 cover Band.. Me and my cousin play together,, music that is,, for years... i play guitar and he, drums... so were trying to get like people together to do the same... find a singer and bass player,, well this hunt is going on more then a year...

but now im getting emails to join bands who like u2 but do orinigal stuff,, which might be fun to do ....

even though my cousin and i have a sort of duo band together, so it`ll be intersting to see where it goes.. im always afaird of this taking my time away from whats improtant but,, you only really live once, and i know i will regret not doing this now,, when im older....

just gotta convience my cousin of the same....

shut and enjoy the ride..

taking craps at work

im in my bosses office and one of the ladies that work here is now in the bathroom,, i think shes taking a shit... GOD DAMN IT it SINKS,, ITS ALL UP IN MY NOSE.. and shes one that complains about other people stinking it up....

i hope she uses the new air freshner we installed in there,, its tape right against the wall at eye level you take dump,, god damn i hope she uses it...

looking for work

im online now,, trying to find a better job... the pickins are slim here,, nothing really catches my eye...
i need something that will, make me leave this kidna chusy job i have here.....

i need something in the arts,, like a gallery work or something... maybe something in the city would be best.....

i have my resume up in monster.com,, now im trying to look on the NY times website,, maybe i`ll have better luck there.

Editing

im trying to edit a piece my friend did,, he wrote a play and me and this other guy filmed it, so im trying to put together somekind of dvd thing for him... it was suppose to be a nice small project , but it has now turned into some kind of monster i didnt really want...
i trying to edit,, but knowing this might not see the light of day, is a little disheartening..
I mean the actors will see it,, etc,, but that's about it, it wont be for mass people... so i trying to look at it as pratice for the future for when i do other projects and stuff, and when i try to edit my own stuff....

we all are artist right out of college unsure excatly what to do with ourselves.
i think they shouldve at least given us a handbook,,, "what to expect your first year out of college" Chapter 1 . MAJOR DEPRESSION AND SELF DOUBT...

I think the best thing we can do is create projects for ourselves, till we start breaking in....

Me,, iv been delaying the start of my career,, i dont know really why i am...i had alot of motivation before my mother got sick,, but when she did, it started to put things into perspetive....and now my father is at the tail end of his career in real estate, so life is gonna change , and life has changed,, now my mother is totally dependent on me,, and im scared if i change something in my life, that it will affect her negativly,, she depends on the money i give her, the rent i pay for her....
they didnt tell me this when i got the rolled up piece of paper on gradution day,,maybe its in the fine print,,

Prison time

wow,, to verdicts came in today

robert blake was found not guilty

then i see they went with the death plenty for peterson


which i think he deserves...

but the blake case ,, i was sure this guy was gonna be found guilty,, he had like the worse alibe,,(bad spelling)...
but there u go,, thats justice for you...

lets see what happens now with jackson

Project Green Light

Just finished watching Project Greenlight,, the 3rd season...

not bad,,,

they picked a pretty good director,, from what i can tell from his short that he submitted, but a not so good writting team,, so`ll be interesting to watch how this season turned out..

watching shows like these always gives you the movie buzz,, and makes you want to go out and make movie...

1 step at a time,, let me first find a god damn decent job first

Hunter Thompson

ive been reading all day in ROlling Stone magazine ,, articles on Hunter Thompson,, the author of the book Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, which was made into a movie starring Johnny Depp
...

reading this article made me realize what a genius i have missed,, the man shot himself last month....

i already ,, from reading the magazine,, put his books on reserve...

from the articles,, it seems like this man live his life by his own rules, and that his writting was much the same way.

i think it balls to be someone like that,, sometimes i wish i was.....

reading the article,, makes me want to write,, which my lil secreat hidden passion,, i was had the fore sight or the talent to sit down and write a whole book,, or a movie script....
i have tried in the past,, most i got was 40 pages.

i think thats one reason i kinda started this BLOG,, to kinda fulfill my writting itch that i have... my first passion is photography, but writting along with making music is up there,, and i think they all can co exist together.. that`ll be an interesting project for me,, mend all my loves into one project,, writting, music and photos....

i would call it,, at first glance...


Hunter Thompson

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trying to find a new job

Im sitting in front of my boss's computer at the moment, ,,,since hes not here ...and im trying to look for a new job,, and my job now LOL .. not that this job is not good,, it has its moments....its just not what i envisioned for myself after college. i had this whole other plan for myself, i thought i be the shit right now....but i guess thats life....sort of....